Alter-Ego
By: Melissa Joy Anderson
She tells me to call
I tell her no
She tells me not to let this go
I tell her it’s what he wanted
Maybe even needed
She assures me that I must not be defeated
But defeated I am
Just as I was back then
I really lost my true, best friend
My lie led him to believe that I wasn’t completely true
My lie led him not knowing what to do
She tells me to call, drop him a line
I tell her that I must give it more time
For he’s found the new love of his life
Oh God, what if she is to become his wife
She assures me again that I must not let her defeat
She reminds me that he’ll make my life complete
I tell her I’ll give it some time to think things through
She yells that isn’t the right thing to do
She threatens if I don’t listen she’ll make her move
Get him back with that smooth, tantalizing groove
We wrestle and fight
Scream back and forth
Until neither of us has a voice
I cry, she laughs
I laugh, she cries
Then we both sit in darkness with deep, heavy sighs
The pain is too deep for either of us to bear
Obviously this situation wasn’t meant to be fair
She asks if I’m okay
I tell her I’m cool
She then throws back her head, laughs, and calls me a fool
Tells me I’ll never find another true man
‘Cause I let this one go like grains of sand in my hand
I ignore her but her taunting won’t cease
I need something to put my mind at ease
She reaches in my cabinet for a drink
I ask her to please stop and try to think
She tells me to follow her to the bedroom
I walk slowly there like I’m heading for my doom
She points to my reflection in the mirror and I cry
She grabs a tissue to wipe my eyes
I tell her to go and just leave me be
She then gets down on shaky knees
She kisses my hands and tells me she loves me so
But I know she can’t leave
She’s my alter-ego